A new different life

Crazy mum on loose

2006-04-17T07:32:00.000-07:00

Hiaz... another bad tragic again and again as usual, my mom. she called mi yesterday morning telling mi that she die die want to come to my mother-in-law's hse on the 26th coz its cedric one month. not say that i do not allow her to come or wat.. is that i dislike her coming alone.. she cause a lot of problems and who knows if she suddenly go crazy at my in-law's hse? futhermore, i had told her that mi and serene will be going out to give the cakes to our relatives on that day since i can't find a chalet coz i have to go back to camp on sunday.

she (my mom) complained that we don't allow her to visit her grandson after i explain to her already. best of all is that she told mi that if i am bringing my baby home every saturday as promised to her, she will leave the hse if serene comes.. There was once that serene make a joke saying that when we comes, my mom will look after cedric if we are playing manjong.. is only a joke but she is serious and thinks that serene treat her like maid..bah..bah..bah..

she insisted that she will still come down on 26th and told mi that she will call police if nobody answer the door.. see... she's crazy right.. i told her that if she call police i will be happier coz i will cal IMH and she can get lock up again.. i know that many ppl out there will think that i am a bastard to treat my mom like that but please think about it, mi and my bro have been suffering a lot since she had mental illness (10 yrs ago).. we lose many frzs because she want about calling my frzs early in the morning(1-2am) and hang up the phone when they pick up. and my poor bro(26yrs this yr) haven't had a gf since he was born, y? i think its not that he doesn't want its more like he dun want to coz his opp sex to suffer wat we are suffering.

whenever mi and my bro hear those little kids smoking coz that claim that they are stress when they have good parents, we always have the feeling to give them a big punch to their face and tell them to have my mum for 1 month.. i won't be surprise that 1 month later they will shave their head bald and become monk. i keep asking myself y i am so sway.. is this my fate or wat... i feel sad when serene has to go through this wif mi.. and even sad when i know that she starting to find my mum irritated and she want her to comsume medication.. i really feel sorry for my wife but i really hope that she understands that there is nothing i can do coz i know my dad loves her a lot and i dun want to hurt my dad.

cedric is starting to be naughty.. keep crying for no reason.. think he is growing ba.. starting to want ppl to play and keep him company. finally.. to all those ppl out there with caring and able to think properly parents.. please treat them nice coz u never know when they will be unable to do so anymore...

Day of polyclinic appt

2006-04-13T03:53:00.000-07:00

Today my dear cedric finally has a good news. he doesn't need to go back for checkup anymore.. The doc say that he is fine and just need to go for his hep B injection. Yesterday. he was beaten by me coz he was very naugthy yesterday. i smack his butt.

haizz... he has a nuh appt next wk.. and for mi, another 17 days and i will have to report back to camp and its on a sunday morning.. haiz.. got cos duty to go. not only that.. i will have to do cos on 30, 01, 02 ,03 of may. continuous four days of cos... just because i am clearing leave and offs for a month to look after my baby and wife? thats y i hate army sometimes.. got no brain one lor.. they think i having fun for a month like that.

Then again is my crazy mom.. keep calling mi everyday talking unlogic things.. not say i don't allow her to come and visit her grandson but i am staying in my mother-in law house because my house is 3-rm. thats y. She keeps wanting to come and when she comes, she thinks that this is my house like tat, anyhow walk around. then the best part is what.. she doesn't want to leave. i dun blame her for having mental illness but can somebody just lock her up in imh so that she eats her medication. she better dun create any nonsense tomorrow when she comes, if not she dun blame mi for disallowing her to come again.

cedric will have a appt with nuh on the 19th of april.. until then, lets hope that this playful guy will be heathy til then..

Being a father ( day 13)

2006-04-11T03:18:00.000-07:00

Today is the 13th day of being a father. hmnn.. ask mi how does it feel? happiness and sadness. happy that i have a cute little baby, sad that i dun think i am i good father. Whenever my boi boi (cedric) crys, i can't help but feel useless as i dun know wat he is crying for? is he hungry? is he loney or did he just wet his diapers? These are the usual questions i will think. When i check and do all these things, he will still cry, but y?

Another sad thing is to see ur beloved wife facing the same stress as u and u also can't help her. all i can say to her is that babies are like that. i can feel that my wife is very stressed but she keeps telling mi that she's okay. i really hope that she do tell mi her problems.

Cedric will be seeing the doctor again on thursday for checkup. hopefully he is alright